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“On a more personal level, ‘Shaking Hell’ mirrors my struggle with my own identity and the anger I felt at who I was. Every woman knows what I’m talking about when I say girls grow up with a desire to please, to cede their power to other people. At the same time everyone knows about the sometimes agressive and manipulative ways men often exert power in the world, and how by using the word empowered to describe women, men are simply maintaining their own power and control. (…)
Back then, and even now, I wonder. Am I ‘empowered’? If you have to hide your hypersensitivity, are you really a ‘strong woman’? Sometimes another voice enters my head, shooing these thoughts aside. This one tells me that the only really good perfomance is one where you make yourself vulnerable while pushing beyond your familiar comfort zone. I liken it to having an intense, hyper-real dream, where you step off a cliff but don’t fall to your death.”
Fra Kim Gordons memoir ‘Girl in a Band’

Af en eller andet grund talte denne passage dybt til mig i dag, da jeg sad og drak morgenkaffe på en af mine yndlingscaféer i Shoreditch. Måske fordi jeg lige nu er et sted, hvor jeg prøver at finde mig selv i en ny by, i en ny karriere og i det hele taget en ny tid for mig selv. Nogle gange kan det være svært at tro på sig selv og ens egenskaber, og man kommer til at sætte spørgsmålstegn ved sig selv og ens fejl, i stedet for at sætte udråbstegn ved sine færdigheder og stærke sider. Kim Gordon minder mig om, at det dybe vand er der, hvor jeg bedst lærer at svømme, og får mig til at stræbe efter denne intense, hyper-real dream.